< BACK  | AT HOME • December 1, 2014
The Day I said ‘No’ to Martyrdom
Give, give, give.
Kids, work, partner, family, friends, dog, society’s demands.
Then give a little more.
To the point you’re so shattered at the end of the day, there’s nothing left but the deep feeling of where-the-hell-is-my-bed.
And where can you find ‘ME’ in all of this?
Somewhere between oblivion and nowhere.
No time (let alone energy) for what I want to do, who I want to be, where I want to go. Forget that I may have something to offer the world. I’m a tad bit too busy prancing around making everyone else happyyyyyyyy.
Somewhere in that crushing exhaustion, I muster up the strength to convince myself if everyone I love is happy, I’m happy too. That bullshit quells that unfulfilled gnawing of ‘what about me?’ for 5 more mins. Sleep will come soon enough anyway.
And sure enough it does.
Then there’s a brand new day
With the same old crap.
The cycle starts again.
Give, give, give.
Then give a little more….
Enough.
It’s time to take my power back.
Its time to bring ‘me’ back.